here and now

it's been nearly a year since the SC primary. 1/26/08 changed my life and the course of history. that Saturday night victory rally sparked momentum that would carry Obama through the primaries and a momentum for my future. and here i am, a year later. I'm going to see the inauguration. I'm going to see DC for the first time. I'm going to burst with pride for my country, government, and fellow Americans.

why so soft, unresisting and yielding?

my plans never seem to work out. i just want to get away. i just want to be left alone. i'm wallowing in self-pity and it's disgusting. i can't believe my own jealousy. i don't feel in control anymore.





why so little fate in your glances?